Long Time No Talk

Wow... So much has been going on since the last time I

posted on my Blog. I am not really sure where to begin. I can't believe I have neglected this for 2 years! I will give the short version to save you all from utter and complete boredom. In the last 2 years I continued my employment with the Missouri Department of Corrections. I recently resigned my position there in November of 2009, following an assault by 2 offenders. I was not hurt real bad, but it was enough to shake up my husband. They did not do me right when it happened. I was offered no time off, was not allowed to go out to the hospital due to lack of staffing, and was denied a temporary leave to decide what I wanted to do. To make matters worse, they are now fighting my unemployment.

Something positive has managed to blossom out of all of this though. I am now attending college full time online and working towards an Associate of Science degree in Graphic Design. I am very excited about the path that I have chosen. Although it has been 14 years since I graduated high school, I face each new assignment with optomism and determination. I absolutely love my design class and I am learning a lot and having a great time doing it.

Well, I hope that brings everyone up to speed a bit! The kids are all doing great, and Bill is still Bill. LOL We are just living life and trying to enjoy it as we go !!!

VEGAS BOUND...VEGAS BACK

OK....NOW I HAVE BEEN TO VEGAS....IT WAS OK... BUT NOT AS GREAT AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE... I HAD FUN...BUT AM VERY TIRED....HOOVER DAM WAS MY FAVORITE PART OF THE WHOLE TRIP.... I WOULD DO IT AGAIN...BUT NOT FOR A WHILE AND ONLY FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS....THE SCENERY WAS GREAT SO I THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE....

WORK ... WORK....WORK

HAVE YOU EVER HAD ONE OF THOSE JOBS THAT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE NEVER HOME.... I NEVER REALIZED HOW MUCH MY LIFE AT HOME RESEMBLED MY NEW JOB AT THE PRISON... BASICALLY THEY ARE THE SAME...YOU HAVE TO BE FAIR, FIRM, AND CONSISTANT....YOU GET BACK TALK ALL THE TIME... YOU HAVE PEOPLE DOING STUPID THINGS THAT GET THEM IN TROUBLE....AND THE CONSEQUENCES CAN RANGE FROM NON-EXISTANT TO TIME OUT....LOL

I AM REALLY ENJOYING MY JOB....PEOPLE ALWAYS LOOK AT ME FUNNY WHEN I SAY THAT CUZ THEY WONDER HOW I CAN ENJOY BEING AROUND CRIMINALS 8 HOURS A DAY... THE TRUTH IS THAT IT IS BASICALLY LIKE BEING OUT ON THE STREETS...BECAUSE , AFTER ALL, DO WE EVER TRULY KNOW THE PEOPLE THAT WE MEET EVERYDAY. WE DON'T KNOW WHO THEY ARE AT HOME WITH THEIR OWN PEOPLE , AND I DON'T WANNA KNOW... JUST LIKE I DON'T WANNA KNOW WHAT THE OFFENDERS AT WORK ARE IN FOR... AS LONG AS I TREAT THEM ALL THE SAME, I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT IT.....AND NOW .....SOME ON THE JOB HUMOR......

EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE YOU COME ACROSS HAVING TO WORK WITH SOMEONE THAT YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND.....I HAVE MET PLENTY OF THESE AT THE PRISON....SO SOMETIMES WHEN I GET BORED I TRY TO FIND THE HUMOR IN THOSE AROUND ME.....THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE SOME OF THIS.....

WORKING WITH LENT
ON THIS GOD FORSAKEN HILL
IS A FAIT WORSE THAN DEATH
FROM WHICH YOU CAN'T HEAL

JACKING WITH HIS RADIO
REARRANGING HIS BELT
TALKING ABOUT GIANT COOKIES
AND HOW VIETNAM FELT(he's only in his 20's)

BUMMING ON MY CIGARETTES
EATIN ALL MY FOOD
CAN I HAVE ONE OF YOUR SODA'S?
I'M SO BROKE....BOODY - HOO

IF ONLY I HAD THE WORDS
TO DESCRIBE WORKING WITH LENT
OTHERS HAVE HAD THE EXPERIENCE
AND NOW KNOW WHAT I MEANT

I THOUGHT PERHAPS IT WAS ME
MAYBE I AM THE BITCH
BUT NO THAT'S NOT IT
I'M AT THE END OF MY WITS

ALL THE CRAZY VOICES
THE ENDLESS RAMBLING OF THOUGHTS
WON'T SOMEONE NORMAL CALL ME
I CAN FEEL MY BRAIN ROT

IS IT TIME TO GO HOME YET?
I KNOW THAT IT'S BEEN HOURS!
SHIT ! IT'S ONLY MIDNIGHT
I DON'T HAVE SUPER POWERS

I CAN'T STOP A SPEEDING BULLET
I'M NOT FASTER THAN A TRAIN
I CAN'T TAKE 8 HOURS OF NONSENSE
I JUST MIGHT GO INSANE

7:00 IS A LITTLE CLOSER
I MIGHT MAKE IT OUT ALIVE
TIME MUST HAVE GONE BY NOW
SHIT ! IT'S ONLY TWELVE O' FIVE

Almost Done

ok...here i am...i am almost done with all of my basic training....don't i look spiffy in my uniform...just thought i would holler at everyone and let you know that i am still alive...hope everyone is doing good and enjoying life...talk to everyone soon..

JUST ANOTHER POEM FOR YOU

Time Alone

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My head hurts,
Please make it go away.
My heart is breaking,
I just can’t stand the pain.

The feeling of emptiness,
Is with me everyday.
When will this pain,
Start to fade away?

I need some time off.
I need some time alone.
Will you be okay,
If I leave you on your own?

I need to get away,
To redefine who I am.
I don’t remember anymore,
And no one gives a damn.

I do ! I care !
I miss me everyday.
I just need to be free.
I need to get away.

LOTS BEEN HAPPENING...

OK..THERE HAS BEEN A LOT GOING ON SINCE I LAST POSTED...BILL AND I ATTENDED A WEDDING THAT WAS WAY OVER DUE....

THE GIRLS GOT A NEW POOL THAT THEY ABSOLUTELY LOVE.....

THEY HAVEN'T BEEN OUT OF IT FOR 3 DAYS....

THE GIRLS ARE ALL GOOD...CRAZY AS EVER....AND TWICE AS ROTTEN AS EVER, BUT THEY ARE HAVING A GREAT SUMMER....THEY ARE READY TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL NEXT MONTH...BILL AND I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIG THEY ARE GETTING...STARTING TO FEEL A LITTLE OLD...

AND LAST, BUT NOT LEAST, I BELIEVE I HAVE A NEW JOB COMING UP... I TOOK MY WRITTEN TEST TO WORK AS A CORRECTIONS OFFICER AT A PRISON NEARBY, AND THEY CALLED ME 2 DAYS LATER...THEY WILL BE CALLING ME AGAIN THIS WEEK TO LET ME KNOW WHEN TO COME OVER FOR MY DRUG TEST...(not a problem).. GLAD THAT IS SOMETHING I HAVE NEVER HAD TO WORRY ABOUT.. I AM JUST HAPPY ABOUT EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW..EVERYTHING IS FALLING INTO PLACE FINALLY..AND WE COULDN'T BE HAPPIER...

WHAT A BORING WEEK!!!

Ok...this post is going to include some senseless rambling and very little actual information. I don't have anything to talk about because this week has been soooo boring. I have worked...worked...and worked some more. That is about all. I built half of Bill' s horseshoe pit yesterday...i love building things!! Hope everyone has a wonderful 4th of July holiday. I will be stuck at work all night.. it is so unfair! I am one of the only ones there who has young children and I am the one that gets stuck closing. Where is the sense in that...I also have to close Thursday night which just adds to my hatefulness towards my job. I get so tired of taking all of these jobs that I am way to smart to be working. Well I am done complaining for now. Everyone have a great 4th......