WORK ... WORK....WORK

HAVE YOU EVER HAD ONE OF THOSE JOBS THAT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE NEVER HOME.... I NEVER REALIZED HOW MUCH MY LIFE AT HOME RESEMBLED MY NEW JOB AT THE PRISON... BASICALLY THEY ARE THE SAME...YOU HAVE TO BE FAIR, FIRM, AND CONSISTANT....YOU GET BACK TALK ALL THE TIME... YOU HAVE PEOPLE DOING STUPID THINGS THAT GET THEM IN TROUBLE....AND THE CONSEQUENCES CAN RANGE FROM NON-EXISTANT TO TIME OUT....LOL

I AM REALLY ENJOYING MY JOB....PEOPLE ALWAYS LOOK AT ME FUNNY WHEN I SAY THAT CUZ THEY WONDER HOW I CAN ENJOY BEING AROUND CRIMINALS 8 HOURS A DAY... THE TRUTH IS THAT IT IS BASICALLY LIKE BEING OUT ON THE STREETS...BECAUSE , AFTER ALL, DO WE EVER TRULY KNOW THE PEOPLE THAT WE MEET EVERYDAY. WE DON'T KNOW WHO THEY ARE AT HOME WITH THEIR OWN PEOPLE , AND I DON'T WANNA KNOW... JUST LIKE I DON'T WANNA KNOW WHAT THE OFFENDERS AT WORK ARE IN FOR... AS LONG AS I TREAT THEM ALL THE SAME, I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT IT.....AND NOW .....SOME ON THE JOB HUMOR......

EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE YOU COME ACROSS HAVING TO WORK WITH SOMEONE THAT YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND.....I HAVE MET PLENTY OF THESE AT THE PRISON....SO SOMETIMES WHEN I GET BORED I TRY TO FIND THE HUMOR IN THOSE AROUND ME.....THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE SOME OF THIS.....

WORKING WITH LENT
ON THIS GOD FORSAKEN HILL
IS A FAIT WORSE THAN DEATH
FROM WHICH YOU CAN'T HEAL

JACKING WITH HIS RADIO
REARRANGING HIS BELT
TALKING ABOUT GIANT COOKIES
AND HOW VIETNAM FELT(he's only in his 20's)

BUMMING ON MY CIGARETTES
EATIN ALL MY FOOD
CAN I HAVE ONE OF YOUR SODA'S?
I'M SO BROKE....BOODY - HOO

IF ONLY I HAD THE WORDS
TO DESCRIBE WORKING WITH LENT
OTHERS HAVE HAD THE EXPERIENCE
AND NOW KNOW WHAT I MEANT

I THOUGHT PERHAPS IT WAS ME
MAYBE I AM THE BITCH
BUT NO THAT'S NOT IT
I'M AT THE END OF MY WITS

ALL THE CRAZY VOICES
THE ENDLESS RAMBLING OF THOUGHTS
WON'T SOMEONE NORMAL CALL ME
I CAN FEEL MY BRAIN ROT

IS IT TIME TO GO HOME YET?
I KNOW THAT IT'S BEEN HOURS!
SHIT ! IT'S ONLY MIDNIGHT
I DON'T HAVE SUPER POWERS

I CAN'T STOP A SPEEDING BULLET
I'M NOT FASTER THAN A TRAIN
I CAN'T TAKE 8 HOURS OF NONSENSE
I JUST MIGHT GO INSANE

7:00 IS A LITTLE CLOSER
I MIGHT MAKE IT OUT ALIVE
TIME MUST HAVE GONE BY NOW
SHIT ! IT'S ONLY TWELVE O' FIVE

OK...I KNOW I HAVE BEEN SLACKING, BUT I AM REALLY BUSY GETTING THE NEW HOUSE READY TO MOVE INTO. I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED...JUST WANTED TO STOP BY HERE AND LET EVERYBODY KNOW..I HAVEN'T FORGOT YA!!! I AM ALMOST DONE W/ MY PAINTING AND THEN I JUST GOTTA CLEAN UP. IT SHOULD BE ALL DONE BY NEXT WEEK. WISH ME LUCK!!!!!!!!!!

JUST ANOTHER POEM

I wrote this poem as a creative writing assignment my senior year of high school, and ended up in the counselor's office w/ my principal and my mother later that same day. My counselor told my mother that it was a cry for help and he was shocked when my mom and I both burst out in laughter. No one has ever really gotten my writing except for my mother. I do everything in my life the hard way. I love hard, lose hard, and hurt hard. It is just who I am. When I give, I give everything I have and am. It is just my nature. So, no I am not suicidal, and no this is not a cry for help, but it is good and is also one of my favorites that I have written. So I hope you all enjoy this poem, but please know that I am a very happy and well adjusted person.

To End It All

By: Tanjua S. Waddle

Death seems like the perfect way
Just to end it all.
You say goodbye, and bid farewell,
And leave the rest to fall.

It seems no mater how I try,
I just can’t get things right.
Why can’t the one who takes us all,
Come take me tonight.

I’m sure they’ll say I just gave up,
And some may think that’s true.
But in the times of my distress,
I just don’t know what to do.

I try to do right by all,
But I always end up wrong.
I just hope when I am gone,
You’ll realize I did belong.

I tried to fit in the world around,
But I always seemed to fail.
I was merely a train in the night,
Waiting to derail.

Like two ships passing in the night,
So did I pass life.
I left it for the rest to live.
For each of you I sacrificed.

Please don’t think I left you all,
To make it on your own.
You’ll always have the memories,
Of the love I’ve never shown.

I tried to show each of you,
The love I hid away.
For those of you who never knew,
You’ll each find out someday.

You may not all see it now,
But the future will surely tell.
Just follow your heart, and live your dreams,
And never allow yourself to fail.

I can’t ask you all to forgive me,
For all I’ve said and done.
I just wanted you each to know,
That beneath, I’m only human.

You all thought I was solid as stone,
But even the largest mountain crumbles.
I tried to walk the straight and narrow,
But even the most balanced stumble.

If I could be all you need,
I’d bubble over with joy.
But since I can’t, I think it’s best,
I simply be destroyed.

I know that sounds a little harsh,
But it is best for all.
It wouldn’t be so easy for me,
If I didn’t feel so small.

I’m not needed in this world ,
For anything but to take up space.
I wish I knew another way,
To get myself out of this place.

I don’t feel like you need me here,
To complicate the simple tasks.
I guess I’ve finally decided to show,
The face beneath the mask.

I know it will be hard for you,
To go on without me here.
I simply beg you not to cry,
Don’t shed a single tear.

I guess I’ve said enough for now,
And I hope that you all see.
The only thing my death will do,
Is take each of you from me.

CELEBRITY BIRTHDAY OF THE DAY

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY GILBERT GOTTFRIED"
Birthday: February 28, 1955
Birth Place: Brooklyn, NY
Siblings: Youngest out of three
Starring in:
I love the 80s Strikes Back(2003)
Hollywood Squares (2002)
Cyberchase- Digit (2002)
House of Mouse- Iago (2001)
Hollywood Squares(2002)
USA Up All Night- Host (1986)
Thicke of the Night(1983)
Saturday Night Live(1975)
Comedy Central Presents

At the young age of 15, Gottfried began doing stand-up at open mike nights in New York City and, after a few short years, became known around town as "the comedian's comedian." After spending several years conquering the art of stand-up comedy, producers of the NBC late night comedy show Saturday Night Live became aware of Gottfried and, in 1980, hired him as a cast member. It wasn't until a few years later when his true notoriety would begin when MTV hired him for a series of improvised and hilarious promos for the newly formed channel. This led to several television appearances on "The Cosby Show" and "Late Night with David Letterman."
Gottfried’s work in television soon led to roles in film. Most memorable was his improvised scene as business manager Sidney Bernstein in the hit sequel "Beverly Hills Cop II," for which the New York Daily News said that “Gilbert Gottfried steals the picture with a single scene.” He appeared in such movies as "Problem Child," "Problem Child II," "Look Who's Talking II" and "The Adventures of Ford Fairlane." He was also the host of the very popular late night movie series "USA Up All Night."
After his performance as the wise ass parrot, IAGO, in the Disney classic "Aladdin," Gottfried became one of the most sought after voice over talents. His signature voice can be heard in several commercials, cartoons and movies, including the frustrated duck in the AFLAC Insurance commercials.
So here is to one of my favorite comedians. I remember watching him in several different movies and television shows. I especially remember him for his USA Up All Night. I have been a night owl most of my life and night time television has always been one of my close friends..HEHEHE
For more information and fun facts on this infamous comedian you can check out the following sites:

www.gilbertgottfried.com/index.html
or
www.geocities.com/amazing_gil/

A LITTLE LAUGHTER GOES A LONG WAY

"You can turn painful situations around through laughter. If you can find humor in anything, even poverty, you can survive it."

Bill Cosby

This is one of my favorite quotes and one that I attempt to live my life by. When I was in school I was pretty much the "class clown". I had a lot of different things going on in my life, and I found that by making other people laugh I could escape my own pain even if just for a little while. I guess that it just kinda stuck after a while. As some of my readers know, I created this blog as a place to find my voice. I know who I used to be, I know who wanna be, but I can't seem to find who I am right now. I am a mother. I am a wife. Other than that, I am a little lost. I am really comfortable being myself around my husband and kids, and there is never a shortage of laughter around our house. For some reason though, I have trouble letting that side of myself out when I am around other people. This, sometimes, makes me come across as insecure which makes it difficult to make new friends. I spent my whole life in a very small rural community in central Missouri, and never ever had a shortage of friends. These are the people that I am still most comfortable around. Maybe this is why I have had a hard time adjusting to living where I am now. I wanna go home. Bill has told me that I can look for a house back home, and the kids are very excited about going back to where all of our family is. So, as soon as it is financially possible, I will be going home. Sorry, got off the subject a little. I guess what I was saying is this......If by bringing laughter to some other person, you bring some peace of mind to yourself, then you win. If you touch just one person with your humor, and can bring a smile to another's face, then you will go far in this life. So, in conclusion, don't ever be afraid to be yourself no matter how goofy that self may be.

THE 320 LB. WOMAN

SOMEONE TO

LOOK UP TO!!!!!!

Not what you were expecting was it???? The tallest and biggest woman in the world lives in Holland. She is 7'4" and weighs 320 pounds. What a relief !!!! Now we ALL know.... we aren't overweight, just tooooooo short!!!! That is what I've been saying for years !!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHO SHARED MY DAY????

I got this idea from my friend jestertunes blog. So thank you Paul for being as cool as you are. I just thought it would be cool to look and see who I share a birthday w/ also. So all of the following people share the same birthday w/ me....Feb. 16th....unfortunately my shared birthdays are not as neat as jestertunes, but it is still cool to know....

JOHN McENROE

SONNY BONO

EDGAR BERGEN

ICE - T

Well there are a few that I could find. It is always cool to know others out there celebrate their birthday on the same day as you. If you want to know who shares your birthday you can try looking for it at.... www.famousbirthdays.com Enjoy your week and come back and read me soon......LOL

HAPPY SUNDAY

Well the weekend is almost over. Today is Sunday and I plan on spending the whole day doing absolutely nothing. This weeeks weekend update is as follows. Friday, of course, we had bowling league. I did really bad this week. It was awful. Does anyone else know what it is like to really enjoy something, but no matter how hard you try at it, you just can't get good at it. That is how it is for me when we bowl. Friday, of course, was my birthday so we stayed after league w/ some good friends of ours and did the moonlight glow bowl. That was really fun and I did much better than I had done during league, but that is usually how it goes. The weather turned pretty bad, so Bill and I had to stay in Brookfield overnight. We got another 5 inches of snow. Saturday morning we got up and had breakfast with Bill's dad and then headed home. We were suppose to go to a wedding Saturday, but because of the roads we decided we should just stay in Brunswick. So, Bill and I went down to the bar where I work and entered the pool tournament. Neither one of us placed, but we had a great time. Saturday night was karaoke, which is one of my all-time favorite things. I usually get asked to sing several of my favorite songs by customers that come in the bar all the time and hear me walking around singing. I love to sing. I don't think I am very good, but everyone at the bar disagrees w/ me. So, I sing for them. I got pretty drunk Saturday night, and had a ball. Later in the night wasn't so good. One of my friends showed up at the bar damn near hysterical. She had been at the house of some of Bill and I's ex-friends, and the husband had tried to force himself on her while she was passed out in the living room. Then, the wife had come in there and tried to beat the shit out of her for screaming. Needless to say, I sat there with her for a very long time while we waited on her parents and the police. I will update everyone later as things occur. So, that was our weekend in a nut shell. Now, I can move on to a more interesting blog. As for this one, I am finished w/ it. Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend.

BABYSITTER DRAMA

Well today is here...just barely. I sit here at 3 am., I just got home from work. Today is my birthday. I am 29 today..whoopee. I don't have a whole lot to say this morning, except a short bitch session about baby sitters. I have 3 little girls, and my husband and I are active in a lot of different things. We are gone from home on an average of 3 nights a week. Does anyone else have the same problem I am about to describe? I spend all day at home, while my kids are at school, and I usually keep a pretty clean house. Then, on the nights Bill and I are gone, I pay someone to come in and mess up my house. I know that sounds crazy, but it is true. I have 2 girls that babysit for me on a regular basis and neither one of them can seem to get it right. Tonight before I went to work, and Bill went to pool league, Bill asked the girls to surprise me for my birthday and make sure the house was all cleaned up. Needless to say, this was not the case when I walked in the door. I feel as though I am paying for another kid to come to my house, eat my food, and watch my TV. This has been an on-going problem for the 2 years we have lived here. Parents are to quick to give their kids hand outs. No one wants to EARN their money anymore. I know that when I was younger, I babysat until I was old enough to get a real job. Then I maintained a 20-40 hr. work week on top of school. I kept my grades high, and I always had plenty of my own money. When I was babysitting, the TV never came on until all the kids were in bed and the house was cleaned up and dishes done. I am a strong believer in " the one who cooks it, cleans it". Apparently, I am the only one. I have to have a baby sitter, but I am so tired of coming home to a messy house. AAAAHHHH!!! It is very frustrating. So, I guess what I am saying is....what has happened to today's youth? Why can't they understand that they have to EARN their pay just like everyone else. Bill and I pay really well, but we get nothing in return. I miss the old days. Family is very important to us, and we love our girls to death. I just have to know that when I leave my house, my kids are in the best possible hands, and that what I say....goes. I guess that's it for now. Goodnight everyone.

MANY TALENTED PEOPLE

My sister sent me a couple of e-mails over the last couple of days that i simply feel the need to share. I have no doubt in my mind that this world is full of extremely gifted and talented people, some of them you just don't hear about very often...so I am not going to say much in this blog, I will simply let the following pictures speak for themselves. I hope everyone finds these as cool as I do......This just goes way beyond normal talent... and I absolutely love it..!!!!

I am totally loving this horse. The detail is incredible, and I can't begin to imagine the time it took.

The next to pictures are of an artist that she sent me....I will also let these speak for themselves.

Before.......And After..........By the way..it is still a flat wall.

So to all of you out there w/ some extreme talent, I take my hat off to you. For the rest of you who are all talented in your own way, share what you do best and never fear not being great, because the competition is extreme and as long as you enjoy it....it is worth the time you put in it.

THE IDIOCRACY'S OF THE DRUNK

Not much to write about today. I worked tonight, and as you all know, I am a bartender. So I decided I would dedicate tonight's blog to the brilliance of the average drunk. Let me just start off by saying that I am so in the wrong line of business. First off, I hate drunks. Second, I have a very bad temper and a very short fuse. Take these two character traits and add them to working during Thursday night pool league, and you are just asking for trouble. I am usually very good at holding my temper when it comes to my job here in Brunswick because I know everyone that comes in there. But sometimes, there is not enough patience in the world to deal w/ a small town drunk. Alcohol can cause even the nicest person in the world to turn into a major first class prick. Friends want to fight friends. Wives get pissed off at their husband. Someone talks or touches someone else in a way that they normally wouldn't. All of these things combined can sometimes make for a very volatile situation. There were no fist fights tonight, but there were two shoving matches and one very loud argument. Not to mention the owner came walking in from a craps game w/ his face covered in blood and all cut up. He had been invited to a friends to play craps and I guess some young punk got pissed and tried to start shit w/ him. He grabbed him and through him down on the slick ice causing all of the scratches and blood. When my boss regained his footing the punk ran for the house. He apparently was not looking for a fair fight. Anyway, the point of this story is......If you are going to drink, drink in moderation..because even if you don't remember what you said and did...you can almost guarantee that someone else will. And most people think that they are hilarious when they have had a few drinks, but more than not...someone will not think you are so funny. So, in closing, if you go out to have a good time make sure that you can remember it the next morning or you may find yourself being snubbed by your favorite bartender and not know why...Have a great weekend.

SUCKS DON'T IT

Well ladies and gentlemen it's that time of year once again. Tax time!!! For some people, like Bill and I , you look forward to this time of year all year long. It is like a late Christmas for mom and dad. All that stuff you wanted to buy one another for Christmas, but just couldn't afford because you had to make sure the kids are taken care of. This year Bill and I got to file our taxes really early. We had all of our money back by the second week of January. On the down side, here it is the 2ND week of February and the money is GONE! Yes, we did get everything paid off this year. We also spent quite a bit on ourselves and the girls. It was time for me to get a brand new computer, which I have wanted for 7 years. Bill got a new PlayStation and some stuff for his truck. The kids got new clothes and we got some new furniture. All of this is great, and we still have a little left to go to the casino this weekend, but then sadly it will be gone. The best part for me was not the new stuff. It was the ability to pay off all those little bills that pile up throughout the year. So to all of you just getting ready to get yours back....ENJOY! On a final note, for all of you who pay in each year on your taxes, I feel very sorry for you. Bill and I work very hard throughout the year, but unfortunately we still remain middle class. This is my favorite time of year until the money is gone. Then, it is just like any other time of the year. Just another day of work and another weekly paycheck, but that is OK because everything we have is ours and we owe no one anything as of right this minute. To bad this won't last. Before the week is out I will start receiving March's bills and we will start all over again. Have a great time spending!

JUST ANOTHER DAY

It is Tuesday...nothing special about Tuesday's. I talked to my sister for a bit, cleaned some house, did some laundry, and watched tv. It is still flipping cold outside. I hate winter time, even when it is beautiful. Man, my life is really boring when the kids are at school.
On a side note, I would like to take a moment to talk about chat rooms. Since I was bored this morning I decided to take a peak at some of the available chat rooms since I have not entered one in over 9 years. I no longer need to go to the love or relationship rooms since I am very happily married, and Missouri doesn't have any chat rooms for locals to gather. So I decided that a parenting chat room was probably my safest bet. Boy was I wrong.! The second my finger clicked the mouse to connect to the room, I was bombarded by 7...count them..7 people instant messaging me. What is wrong with these people? All 7 people typed broken English as if foreign, And all 7 people had absolutely NO info in their profiles. Now, out of these 7 people, 5 of them went away quietly. Unfortunately the other 2 were not quite as accommodating. One of them kept buzzing me over and over again...The other would not stop typing...I told him no thank you, I am busy....but he would not stop. He tried to add me to his IM and then kept telling me that if I was a proper lady I would speak to him. I had finally had enough. I closed out of the room and disappeared.
So ladies and gentleman, my question remains the same....WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE???...Is this what I should expect every time I try to go in to a chat room? I thought I was going in there to talk to other mom's about parenting, considering it was a parenting chat room, guess I was wrong. I am not looking for any foreigner to marry so he can have his citizenship. I am not looking for anything actually. I just thought it would be good to see what other parents do w/ their children...ie...discipline, problems, and support. Unfortunately I have no idea what was being said in the room because I was trying to clear my screen of instant messenger boxes. This is my complaint for the day. Thank you for listening and I will talk to everyone tomorrow.

ANOTHER FULL WEEKEND

This past weekend was just like any other. We have a very busy weekend. On Thursday nights Bill and I have pool league, although i am always working, i always get to play. It is good to work where i play. On Friday we left for Brookfield when Bill got home for work and we dropped the girls off at papa's and headed to the bowling alley. Bill and I bowl on a team called the Woodbee's. It is me and Bill and John and Marsha Dowell. We do pretty good, most of the time. On Saturday Cassie, our oldest daughter, bowls league. Her dad finally ordered her her own bowling ball. She was very excited. Afterwards, we went to mom and Jim's and played texas hold'em. We stayed the night at Bill's dad's house and Sunday we headed home. We went to the Rendezvous and watched the Super Bowl...It was a very very busy weekend. We also saw something that the girls found hilarious. So i took a picture and have put it with this story. We saw this in the the Sav-a-Lot parking lot. Lori says " mommy look the dog is driving "...so of course i had to capture it on film.....check out the pic above.